不了解镜子男

之所以选了这颜色是因为我感觉像极了屎，一坨屎。。。超恶心的对吧？对了，我决定利用镜子男以让我持续我的生活动力！我今天忽然发觉我好像不大了解镜子男。他喜欢吃什么，喜欢什么样的东西，我竟然毫无头绪。。。我至少知道之前喜欢的人喜欢什么啊，可是这次竟然一无所知。就像一只无头苍蝇在找自己的头一样 嘿嘿 我知道这比喻有点那个。。太奇   怪，太恶心了。之前我喜欢的人喜欢😍吃糖，会吃辣，喜欢香水（男生同常都不喜欢香水的哦），还有他家是有钱，可是问题一大堆。。。就像电视剧里演的有钱男的傲慢角色。嘿嘿 

所以我就说我对镜子男一无所知，他又是那种不想让别人发现真实的他的那种人，根本了解不了他啊啊啊啊。。。就算是怎么样都好，他都认为别人不需要道歉🙇，反正一开始都是他的错的那种人。。。真是理不清，摸不透啊～～～上个星期我们又去了同一个地方，根本没约好，镜子男就是镜子男。。。什么都心灵相通，什么都无需多话。可是，为什么我却不了解和我那么相像的人呢？

镜子男

哈咯！大家好！😊 我今天只是想说一下我的故事。我相信每个少年都至少谈过一次恋爱吧？但我没有谈过。如果硬要我说原因的话，那应该会有很多原因吧！其中最大的原因莫过于太守着自己了，如果我再踏出一步，勇敢一点付出自己的真心的话，那即使自己翩体淋伤了，至少我疯狂的爱过。我太过保守，太过迟钝，所以一直都没有发觉自己已经在不知不觉之下建立了一堵无形的墙。不但让别人不敢跨越，还让我自己不敢踏出那一步跨越障碍的脚步。所以结局当然是他走了，和别的女生谈恋爱去了。本来以为是命中注定的恋情，现在却好像泡泡似的消失了，但我对他的感觉应该不会消失。他将会是我生命中最值得暗恋的人。或许我们都太急着追上别人的脚步，而忘了往后看一看掠过的美景吧！喜欢我的人也放弃我了，是因为那堵无形的墙。我害怕😨被人发觉真实的自己所以设立了那堵厚墙。其实我忽略了一件最重要的事，那就是真正的恋人是不会欺骗对方，更不会隐藏自己的。真正喜欢我的人是可以完全接纳我，包容我的。

最近，我好像找到和他很像的人，而那个男生却又非常巧合的和我十分相识。但之后我发觉我错了，而且错的很离谱。那个男生和他最不同的地方是，他至少会为了生活拼命的努力，而那个男生却自暴自弃，从此远离了“爱情”这两个字。那男生也把自己和别人设立了一堵十分庞大的墙，就是这一点，我发觉我和他十分相像，就像在照镜子一样。也就因为我和他十分相像，我才从他身上看到了我做了一个多么大的错误❌我们竟然可以相似到同时不约而同地看同一部戏，真是太可笑了。一开始以为自己喜欢他的错觉也越来越离谱了，现在看不到他的消息就觉得十分想念他。。。可是一开始我只是觉得他和我暗恋过的那个人很像所以才接近他的。我越是了解那个镜子男，越是觉得他可悲，也反映出了我的可悲。。简直无药可救。。好了，就到此为止，我明天必须早起。BYE BYE!!!

Thoughts in my mind lately

I am a 16 years old girl,a teenage.Not too far away to finish my high school life.I am thinking what should I do when I finished my high school lately.I would like to be an author(a chinese novel author),a movie director,a translator,a psychologist,a business women and also a korean singer.Well,I bet you will be thinking that this as a boring title to say about or maybe a boring start for a blogger,but I just want to write down my thoughts,I want an answer for my future.

If I am an author,I will have a more freedom life.Imagine if I can explore the world just to write a best selling novel.That will be awesome,I will be experiencing what life actually is.The reason of why I want to be a movie director is because I want to film out what I want a movie seems to be(the particular feeling that I want).Well,for your information,I know 5 languages,include korean,english,chinese,cantonese and also malay.I know a little bit japanese,spanish and france too.So,maybe I will be posting other language instead of english next time(for my improvement in languages).And the next thing is a psychologist.I have been interested in psychology since I am 15 years old,I have learned some of it by myself through internet resources and also read a lot of psychology book.But!because I know it too well,I found that psychologist will be working hard and get a low salary sometimes(it depends).So,I would also spend my entire life working hard in psychology field,but my dream is to travel all around the world and yet I don't have the time if I am a psychologist.So in this case,it would be"I like it,but I can't make it."As for the business women,I will be rich if I success,and if I am rich I can do anything I want.The last one is to be a korean singer.I will not 100% sure I can be that,it's my first choice for an ambition when I'm 13 years old.I attended several korean entertainment audition,but I failed.I know I still can't really control my voice,but what I'm sure is I'm improving it day by day.The thing there is a singer maybe can only last for around 10 years,and I can't tell that I will be famous or not,it's a little risky.

That's what for now.I hope I can get an answer without thinking so much.duh!